I'm getting ready

To Believe

I find myself singing this song all day long. It really hits home with everything going on in my life lately.

                 "But if I hold on tight, is it true?
                                     Would You take care of all that I do?
                          Oh Lord, I'm getting ready to believe."


Life
Stress has overcome my life at the moment. Family drama is happening all around me. So-and-so not getting along with whats-her-face, disagreements on decisions we've made about the wedding, costs of the wedding (Eeeeks), the guest list... it's overwhelming.
Friendships
Within the months of August through October, I will have lost two friends to two different states, and one friend to a different city... What's wrong with this picture?...I know people grow up and life happens, but it still makes me sad. Of course I won't be losing them forever, they just won't be here physically. I'm actually VERY excited for all three of them. They are following their hearts and goals in life. I definitely support their decisions. Oh, remember this girl, yeah, she's one of them. :'(
Health/Body
I have always had the worst teeth as a child and now as an adult. I can brush and brush and brush, but they just don't get stronger. I am one of the few people that still has their wisdom teeth too :( and now they are finally deciding to grow in and cause me pain. Hair loss is another issue, blaming stress for that. I've also been experiencing tummy aches and pains too, to where alka seltzer has become a close friend.

Just received these as a gift.
I have viewed all these things as negative, but God knew what he was doing when he decided to bombard me with these things all at once. He wouldn't throw something at me if I couldn't handle it, right? He's already made a clear difference in my life... All of those bad things have had something good come out of it. I prayed about them and he listened.

• People have started respecting our decisions corresponding to the wedding.
• I've reconnected with some old friends. I've joined a book club with one group, and a small group with another. Such a huge blessing to be connecting with new and old faces. Where there is loss, there is gain. This was part of the plan.
• My dental insurance just kicked in at a perfect time. I'm grateful to have such great coverage and affordable co-pays, if any at all.
• I've started developing a relationship with God. I've been praying on my own. Spent time alone, just Him and I. I'm currently working on being still and listening to what He's telling me. 

I believe that there is good in everything, you just have to ask for it sometimes. The song helps me realize this. It's easy to walk away and give up. The way I see "I'm getting ready" is a way to keep going, and believing no matter what is put in front of you, good or bad.

I'm putting all my faith in God, and he's listening to me. It's a great feeling to get a reaction, and so quickly. The timing on everything is just unbelievable. It's definitely a #Godthing.... ;)

and for your listening pleasure

A song that I hear and makes me think about my friends that are moving/have moved.


p.s. It's hard writing about your struggles.

zumba virgin

NO MORE!!!


Yes, you read that right, I WAS a zumba virgin... that is until yesterday. Sadly, I wasn't at Ruthie's class, but I was trying out a class that is held at my office. I have found SO many cool things that come with working for the state. Here is a list of some of the bad ass benefits I get (just to name a few)...

1. Work out classes held at two different times throughout the day... in my building! There are a variety of classes like zumba, zumba toning, yoga, strength training, and kickboxing. They all can be done during my lunch break and they are all FREE!!! I love that four letter word.

2. Local produce is sold to state employees from farmers around Texas. You can buy them on a weekly basis and it's only $20. It's cool because you are helping out local farmers and getting fresh produce weekly. It's a pretty sweet deal and they are right across the street from us.

3. My health insurance is completely free. It doesn't come out of my monthly salary, just flat out paid for.

4. There is a special DMV for state employees that takes about 10 minutes to renew a drivers license just two blocks from my office.

5. Discounts at hotels, restaurants, and other businesses in the downtown area.

6. Parking in multiple parking garages for free...there's that word again.

And so so much more! I'm so pleased with how the zumba class went yesterday. I can't wait to try the other ones. 

On another note, my heart is so saddened with the tragedy that happened in Colorado. I'm praying for those people and their families. It's such a sad story :(

I hope you have a great weekend

sayonara, see you later, hasta la vista and THANK YOU!

Thank you so much friends for your encouraging words, whether it be from twitter, facebook, or on the ole blog! I really appreciate your kind words. I had the interview this morning and I think it went really well! I am so happy to even have the opportunity and it really helps build my experience. I should find something out with in two weeks, maybe less. Here's to hoping!

I'm leaving on a jet plane...

Tomorrow Scott and I will be flying out to New Mexico for a long weekend get away. We're going more for a business conference for Scott, so while he's taking care of buisness, I'll be relaxing :) Scott's parents are already in NM, so they'll be meeting us at the airport. We're staying at Tamaya Resort and Spa. It looks like a nice place, similar to Hyatt Lost Pines in Bastrop. I'm really looking forward to getting the time off and getting out of the area. I've been quite stressed lately, so I'm thinking this will be a great cure. I plan on getting lots of reading done, doing a bit of hiking, and spending time with Jan and that's pretty much it! I definitely could use this vacation.

I plan on posting from New Mexico while I'm there just to document the trip and catch up with peeps. I really love this blog world, it's so fun to see what other people are up to all over the world.

Thanks again for your kind words and encouragement :)

*Brooke*

p.s. I still need to pack. Now that is not typical Brooke. That alone tells you that I have been extremely busy. I won't get a chance to pack until 9 tonight, bring on the coffee and long night....

a prayer for me

As of right now, I work for Home Depot. This means that I work any day of the week, a lot of times work with unhappy people, stand on my feet all day, wear an apron, work late hours, have no real benefits :( (I get minimal paid vacation and sick time), and a lot of times miss Scott in passing because of our opposite schedules. Needless to say, all of these things are really wearing on me, physically, mentally and emotionally. It's time for a change, like soon!

Now, I'm not saying that my job is horrible, because it's not. I have learned SO much from this job. I love working and interacting with all sorts of people. I've met and became friends with people that I would have never met anywhere else if it weren't for this place. I'm just grateful to even have a job in this bad economy...

But what I am saying is that I could use something more stable, full-time, and something I enjoy just a liiiittle bit more.

So, usually I wouldn't blast this on the world wide web, but I feel that more prayers are better than less :)

I have interview tomorrow morning. For a big girl job.

Can I ask a favor or two?

Will you pray for me?

Will you send me positive vibes?

Will you give me words of encouragement?

Will you give me advise?

Will you say something that will ease my nerves?

Will you wish me luck?

I could use it!

thank you xox

*Brooke*